Feeling defeated

From Websters:

1de·feat

transitive verb \di-ˈfēt, dē-\

: to win a victory over (someone or something) in a war, contest, game, etc.

: to cause (someone or something) to fail

: to control or overcome (something)

Some days I feel defeated. I am overcome, lost, afraid of the future and sorry for the past. But who has defeated me? No one. What has defeated me? Nothing. I don’t think there is anyone or anything out there, looking to tear me down or have some “victory” over me. But I feel beaten down. It’s like I’m climbing a wall and just when I can see the top, I fall. Spinning my wheels, day in and day out. For every step forward, there seems to be three steps back. I can only hope that some day, I will look back and laugh at my overly dramatic feelings of failure. Will these moments lead to something better? I don’t know. But as much as I want to give up, I can’t. Why? Because I still have to get up tomorrow and walk the dog. Oh, and feed the cats, of course.

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3 thoughts on “Feeling defeated

  1. I think we all have those times and then there’s a victory, large or small, of some kind and we shake it off and move forward. Hopefully your victory will come soon.

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